Monday, February 9, 2009

The Touch of the Master's Hand


"Twas battered and scared, and the auctioneer
Thought it scarcely worth his while
To waste much time on the old violin,
But he held it up with a smile.
"What am I bidden, good folks," he cried,
"Who'll start bidding for me?
A dollar, a dollar - now who"ll make it two _
Two dollars, and who"ll make it three?

"Three dollars once, three dollars twice,
Going for three". . . but no!
From the room far back a gray-haired man
Came forward and picked up the bow;
Then wiping the dust from the old violin,
And tightening up the strings,
He played a melody,pure and sweet,
As sweet as an angel sings.

The music ceased and the auctioneer
With a voice that was quiet and low,
Said: "What am I bidden for the old violin?"
And he held it up with the bow;
"A thousand dollars - and who'll make it two?
Two thousand - and who'll make it three?
Three thousand once, three thousand twice
And going - and gone," said he.

The people cheered, but some of them cried,
"We do not quite understand -
What changed its worth?" The man replied:
"The touch of the masters hand."
And many a man with life out of tune,
And battered and torn with sin,
Is auctioned cheap to a thoughtless crowd.
Much like the old violin.

A "mess of pottage," a glass of wine,
A game and he travels on,
He's going once, and going twice -
He's going - and almost gone!
But the MASTER comes, and the foolish crowd,
Never can quite understand,
The worth of a soul, and the change that's wrought
By the touch of the MASTER'S hand.

~Myra B. Welch

Sunday, February 8, 2009

25 rAnDoM facts...

here goes nothing...
1. i LOVE rainy days and thunderstorms
2. sunny drives with good music can cure any bad mood
3. i am a true kissing entrepreneur in all ways possible
4. i am a hopeless romantic. a lover, not a fighter
5. i have broken 11 bones! all in my arms and fingers plus my tailbone... which was BY FAR the worst
6. my birthday is the 4th of july. and yes, i still like to think some of the fireworks are for me!
7. my sister danielle and I truely thought there were 'kid onions' till we were 10!... thanks mom!!
8. i've been working since i was 15 and to this day, my favorite job was a checker at a grocery store... i love people
9. i've played the piano since i was 5... but shhhh no one knows!
10. my favorite color is purple. second favorite is yellow.
11. i never read a required high school reading book. haha. thank you smart older sister who did her work oh so diligently and made my life easy!
12. i'm like a little kid when it comes to fireworks! they're AMAZING and they make me smile :)13. when i was little my parents used to watch me run into walls as their entertainment (i was blind!)
14. im I.N.D.E.P.E.N.D.E.N.T.
15. snuggling is like medicine to me
16. i LOVE LOVE LOVE baseball games!
17. i wore an eyepatch over my lazy eye when i was 18months old. then wore bifocals till i was in 7th grade. now, just reading glasses :)
18. i live for long peaceful autumn walks
19. if i didn't have to work i'd be camping ALL SUMMER!
20. i chew ice... 24/7 thank you mom! ha
21. a man in a baseball hat and some scruff is the most attractive thing in the world!
22. i would rather my 'man' wear levis as opposed to $250 jeans! keep it simple.
23. i have the coolest scooter and am missing it during this cold winter
24. my family, beliefs, and aspirations are what keeps me going
25. i'm wanted in the state of nevada. (maybe i shouldn't be telling people this)

Wednesday, February 4, 2009

I want a PUPPY

I'd name him Marley
I'd name her Coco

So i've decided I want a puppy... There's a Carrie Underwood song that's called 'The more boys I meet, the more I love my dog.' And I feel like it's totally true, minus the whole dog thing. Plus, I really really want one! :) So here's the lyrics...


This boy here wants to move too fast,
sees my future as havin a past.
Well I dont think so, I dont think so.


That boy there, well hes playin me fool,
he thinks hes funny, and he thinks hes cool.
Well I don't think so, I don't think so


Cheap dates, bad taste, another night gone to waste.


It's not like I'm not tryin', Cuz I'll give anyone a shot once.
And I.... I close my eyes,
and I kiss that frog,
each time findin, the more boys I meet,
the more I love my dog.


Heres this guy, thinks he bad to the bone.
Wants to pick me up, and take me home.
Well I dont think so, I dont think so


Cage fights, playstation, ex-games, raider nation.
Oversized pants with an ego to match.


It's not like I'm not tryin,Cuz I'll give anyone a shot once.
And I... I close my eyes,
and I kiss that frog,each time findin'.
the more boys I meet, the more I love my dog.


Why cant they be like the ones that mean everything to me?
Warm and loyal, Open and friendly.


It's not like im not tryin,Cuz I'll give anyone a shot once.
And I... I close my eyes,
and I kiss that frog,each time findin,
the more boys I meet, the more I love my dog.




Tuesday, February 3, 2009

I feel SOO BLESSED!



And... this is one of my favorite sayings :) this goes out to all my girls!

Girls are like apples on trees. The best ones are at the top of the tree. The boys don't want to reach for the good ones because they are afraid of falling and getting hurt. Instead, they just get the rotten apples from the ground that aren't as good, but easy.So the apples at the top think something is wrong with them, when in reality, they're amazing. They just have to wait for the right boy to come along, the one who's brave enough to climb all the way to the top of the tree.
also... MY GRANDPA HAS BEEN FOUND!!!!!! ... what a relief! thank you for all the prayers! I LOVE YOU ALL!


Monday, February 2, 2009

People come into your life for a reason...


I miss this girl more than ANYTHING! Best friends since high school volleyball days. She's now studying abroad in France for a WHOLE YEAR! She's an absolute genius and most beautiful girl, inside and out!

Words CAN NOT express what this girl means to me. She's my best friend and I love her to death. Some say when your friends get married, it's never the same. But it's only gotten better for us! BEST FRIENDS FOREVER!


People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime. When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person. When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend and they are. They are there for the reason you need them to be. Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on!

Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has come to share, grow or learn. They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it, it is real. But only for a season.

LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons, things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life. It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant .

Thank you for being a part of my life,
whether you were a reason, a season or a lifetime.

Patience, a Heavenly Virtue


Kaitlyn, after she got hit.




My dearest grandpa Barney who's missing.

So, I decided to start a blogging journal but couldn't really think of anything to post all month. The month of January has sure been a crazy one. It started off with Kaitlyn getting hit by a car when she was riding her bike and ended with my grandpa being missing! And yes, there's been some drama in between. Through all of this, I have been a rock! Until today that is. I have been able to see so many blessings from all of this. I had numerous offers to take me to the airport when I was flying home to see my sister and even more offers from the airport to the hospital. We've had friends bring us dinner so we could just hang out as a family and family members from hours away drive to spend time with us. We've had family members drive 10 hours of more in the search efforts for my grandpa and even friends show up in concern! It has just amazed me with the love that we've seen and felt. I've truely had an eternal perspective through all of this... i KNOW that everything is going to be okay!! I truely do, with all my heart! I think that might be the only thing that is keeping me going.

To start the month of February I'm faced with quite the challenge, where to look next for a job. There's been a little bit of drama and I feel that it's now time to move on. But to what???? I could try to find a dental internship where I get paid to learn dental hygeine. I could stay in retail, which i'll be honest, i'm starting to dread. No one wants to buy anything... totally understandable. I could use my esthetics license, which I LOVE doing, but will I be making the money I need to get by? I could move to salt lake or even california and get a fresh start. I could try to move up the restaurant management ladder... after working a month at a restaurant, I fell in love with the people and atmosphere. As some people know, i LOVE PEOPLE! i love talking, making new friends, and making peoples DAY! When I was working at a restaurant I was getting great tips!!... most nights 25-30%. But I only worked in a restaurant for a month. Will anyone really hire me into management? And now for the kicker.... or will I serve a mission? Lets count all of my girlfriends on missions... two in salt lake, new york, wyoming, two in Missouri, two in England, and a dear friend leaving for Argentina this week. I've been to most of these farewells and I leave with such mixed feelings. Do I serve a mission or do I 'keep on keeping on?' Life is so interesting to me. I have SO-OOOOOO many options but i'm not passionate about one thing more than another. I could be happy doing all of these things. TRUELY. But me being impatient wants to know for a fact what i'm supposed to do. I know Heavenly Father isn't going to come down and tell me, 'hey ally, go on a mission.' But freak, I'd love for that to happen. Oh and just incase you're wondering, marriage is not an option. Very VERY single. No one i'm even contemplating! :)

So here's an article that I found today that made me do some thinking... It's EXACTLY what I needed to hear!

Thomas S. Monson, “Patience, a Heavenly Virtue,” Ensign, Sep 2002, 2–7
Several years ago I met an old friend I had not seen for some time. He greeted me with the salutation, “How is the world treating you?” I don’t recall the specifics of my reply, but his provocative question caused me to reflect on my many blessings and my gratitude for life itself and the privilege and opportunity to serve.

At times the response to this same question brings an unanticipated answer. Some years ago I attended a stake conference in Texas. I was met at the airport by the stake president, and while we were driving to the stake center, I said, “President, how is everything going for you?”

He responded: “I wish you had asked me that question a week earlier, for this week has been rather eventful. On Friday I was terminated from my employment, this morning my wife came down with bronchitis, and this afternoon the family dog was struck and killed by a passing car. Other than these things, I guess everything is all right.”

Apply the Virtue of Patience

Life is full of difficulties, some minor and others of a more serious nature. There seems to be an unending supply of challenges for one and all. Our problem is that we often expect instantaneous solutions to such challenges, forgetting that frequently the heavenly virtue of patience is required.

The counsel heard in our youth is still applicable today and should be heeded. “Hold your horses,” “Keep your shirt on,” “Slow down,” “Don’t be in such a hurry,” “Follow the rules,” “Be careful” are more than trite expressions. They describe sincere counsel and speak the wisdom of experience.

The mindless and reckless speeding of a youth-filled car down a winding and hazardous canyon road can bring a sudden loss of control, the careening of the car with its precious cargo over the precipice, and the downward plunge that ofttimes brings permanent incapacity, perhaps premature death, and grieving hearts of loved ones. The glee-filled moment can turn in an instant to a lifetime of regret.

Oh, precious youth, please give life a chance. Apply the virtue of patience.

Patience in Adversity

In sickness, with its attendant pain, patience is required. If the only perfect man who ever lived—even Jesus of Nazareth—was called upon to endure great suffering, how can we, who are less than perfect, expect to be free of such challenges?

Who can count the vast throngs of the lonely, the aged, the helpless—those who feel abandoned by the caravan of life as it moves relentlessly onward and then disappears beyond the sight of those who ponder, who wonder, and who sometimes question as they are left alone with their thoughts. Patience can be a helpful companion during such stressful times.

Occasionally I visit nursing homes, where long-suffering is found. While attending Sunday services at one facility, I noticed a young girl who was to play her violin for the comfort of those assembled. She told me she was nervous and hoped she could do her best. As she played, one called out, “Oh, you are so pretty, and you play so beautifully.” The strains of the moving bow across the taut strings and the elegant movement of the young girl’s fingers seemed inspired by the impromptu comment. She played magnificently.

Afterward, I congratulated her and her gifted accompanist. They responded, “We came to cheer the frail, the sick, and the elderly. Our fears vanished as we played. We forgot our own cares and concerns. We may have cheered them, but they truly did inspire us.”

Sometimes the tables are reversed. A dear and cherished young friend, Wendy Bennion of Salt Lake City, was such an example. Almost seven years ago, she quietly departed mortality and returned “to that God who gave [her] life.”
1 She had struggled for over five long years in her battle with cancer. Ever cheerful, always reaching out to help others, never losing faith, she attracted others to her as a magnet attracts metal shavings. While ill and in pain, a friend of hers, feeling downcast with her own situation, visited Wendy. Nancy, Wendy’s mother, knowing Wendy was in extreme pain, felt that perhaps the friend had stayed too long. She asked Wendy, after the friend had left, why she had allowed her to stay so long when she herself was in so much pain. Wendy’s response: “What I was doing for my friend was a lot more important than the pain I was having. If I can help her, then the pain is worth it.”
The Savior’s Patience

Wendy’s attitude was reminiscent of Him who bore the sorrows of the world, who patiently suffered excruciating pain and disappointment, but who, with silent step of His sandaled feet, passed by a man who was blind from birth, restoring his sight. He approached the grieving widow of Nain and raised her son from the dead. He trudged up Calvary’s steep slope, carrying His own cruel cross, undistracted by the constant jeers and taunting that accompanied His every step. For He had an appointment with divine destiny. In a very real way He visits us, each one, with His teachings. He brings cheer and inspires goodness. He gave His precious life that the grave would be deprived of its victory, that death would lose its sting, that life eternal would be our gift.

Taken from the cross, buried in a borrowed tomb, this man of sorrows, acquainted with grief, arose on the morning of the third day. His Resurrection was discovered by Mary and the other Mary when they approached the tomb. The great stone blocking the entrance had been rolled away. Came the query of two angels who stood by in shining garments: “Why seek ye the living among the dead? He is not here, but is risen.”
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Paul declared to the Hebrews, “Wherefore seeing we also are compassed about with so great a cloud of witnesses, let us lay aside every weight, and the sin which doth so easily beset us, and let us run with patience the race that is set before us.” 3
Other Examples of Patience
Perhaps there has never occurred such a demonstration of patience as that exemplified by Job, who was described in the Holy Bible as being perfect and upright and one who feared God and eschewed evil.
4 He was blessed with great wealth and riches in abundance. Satan obtained leave from the Lord to try to tempt Job. How great was Job’s misery, how terrible his loss, how tortured his life. He was urged by his wife to curse God and die. His later reply bespoke his faith: “I know that my redeemer liveth, and that he shall stand at the latter day upon the earth: And though after my skin worms destroy this body, yet in my flesh shall I see God.” 5 What faith, what courage, what trust. Job lost possessions—all of them. Job lost his health—all of it. Job honored the trust given him. Job personified patience.
Another who portrayed the virtue of patience was the Prophet Joseph Smith. After his supernal experience in the grove called Sacred, where the Father and the Son appeared to him, he was called upon to wait. At length, after Joseph suffered through over three years of derision for his beliefs, the angel Moroni appeared to him. And then more waiting and patience were required. Let us remember the counsel found in Isaiah: “My thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, saith the Lord. For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways, and my thoughts than your thoughts.”
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The Savior’s Invitation
Today in our hurried and hectic lives, we could well go back to an earlier time for the lesson taught us regarding crossing dangerous streets. “Stop, look, and listen” were the watchwords. Could we not apply them now? Stop from a reckless road to ruin. Look upward for heavenly help. Listen for His invitation: “Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.”
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He will teach us the truth of the beautiful verse:
Life is real! Life is earnest! And the grave is not its goal; Dust thou art, to dust returnest, Was not spoken of the soul.
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We will learn that each of us is precious to our Elder Brother, even the Lord Jesus Christ. He truly loves us.
His life is the flawless example of one afflicted with sorrows and disappointments, who nonetheless provided the example of forgetting self and serving others. The remembered verse of childhood echoes afresh:
Yes, Jesus loves me! Yes, Jesus loves me! Yes, Jesus loves me! The Bible tells me so!
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And so does the Book of Mormon, so does the Doctrine and Covenants, and so does the Pearl of Great Price. Let the scriptures be your guide, and you will never find yourself traveling the road to nowhere.
Today, some are out of work, out of money, out of self-confidence. Hunger haunts their lives, and discouragement dogs their paths. But help is here—even food for the hungry, clothing for the naked, and shelter for the homeless.

Thousands of tons move outward from our Church storehouses weekly—even food, clothing, medical equipment and supplies to the far corners of the earth and to empty cupboards and needy people closer to home.

I am inspired by the devotion which prompts busy and talented dentists and doctors on a regular basis to leave their practices and donate their skills to those who need such help. They travel to faraway places to repair cleft palates, correct malformed bones, and restore crippled bodies—all for the love of God’s children. The afflicted who have patiently waited for corrective help are blessed by these “angels in disguise.”

Patience in Germany

In the words of a well-known song, I wish you could “come fly with me” to eastern Germany, where I have visited many times. Not long ago, as I traveled along the autobahns, I reflected on a time almost 35 years before when I saw on the same autobahns just trucks carrying armed soldiers and policemen. Barking dogs everywhere strained on their leashes, and informers walked the streets. Back then, the flame of freedom had flickered and burned low. A wall of shame sprang up, and a curtain of iron came down. Hope was all but snuffed out. Life, precious life, continued on in faith, nothing wavering. Patient waiting was required. An abiding trust in God marked the life of each Latter-day Saint.

When I made my initial visit beyond the wall, it was a time of fear on the part of our members as they struggled in the performance of their duties. I found the dullness of despair on the faces of many passersby but a bright and beautiful expression of love emanating from our members. In Görlitz the building in which we met was shell-pocked from the war, but the interior reflected the tender care of our leaders in bringing brightness and cleanliness to an otherwise shabby and grimy structure. The Church had survived both a world war and the cold war which followed. The singing of the Saints brightened every soul. They sang the old Sunday School favorite:
If the way be full of trial; Weary not! If it’s one of sore denial, Weary not! If it now be one of weeping, There will come a joyous greeting, When the harvest we are reaping—Weary not!
Do not weary by the way, Whatever be thy lot; There awaits a brighter day To all, to all who weary not!
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I was touched by their sincerity. I was humbled by their poverty. They had so little. My heart filled with sorrow because they had no patriarch. They had no wards or stakes—just branches. They could not receive temple blessings—neither endowment nor sealing. No official visitor had come from Church headquarters in a long time. The members were forbidden to leave the country. Yet they trusted in the Lord with all their hearts, and they leaned not to their own understanding. In all their ways they acknowledged Him, and He directed their paths. 11 I stood at the pulpit, and with tear-filled eyes and a voice choked with emotion, I made a promise to the people: “If you will remain true and faithful to the commandments of God, every blessing any member of the Church enjoys in any other country will be yours.”
That night as I realized what I had promised, I dropped to my knees and prayed: “Heavenly Father, I’m on Thy errand; this is Thy Church. I have spoken words that came not from me, but from Thee and Thy Son. Wilt Thou, therefore, fulfill the promise in the lives of this noble people.” There coursed through my mind the words from the psalm, “Be still, and know that I am God.”
12 The heavenly virtue of patience was required.
Little by little the promise was fulfilled. First, patriarchs were ordained, then lesson manuals produced. Wards were formed and stakes created. Chapels and stake centers were begun, completed, and dedicated. Then, miracle of miracles, a holy temple of God was permitted, designed, constructed, and dedicated. Finally, after an absence of 50 years, approval was granted for full-time missionaries to enter the nation and for local youth to serve elsewhere in the world. Then, like the wall of Jericho, the Berlin Wall crumbled, and freedom, with its attendant responsibilities, returned.

All of the parts of the precious promise of almost 35 years earlier were fulfilled, save one. Tiny Görlitz, where the promise had been given, still had no chapel of its own. Now, even that dream became a reality. The building was approved and completed. Dedication day dawned. Sister Monson and I, along with Elder and Sister Dieter Uchtdorf, held a meeting of dedication in Görlitz. The same songs were sung as were rendered all those years earlier. The members knew the significance of the occasion, marking the total fulfillment of the promise. They wept as they sang. The song of the righteous was indeed a prayer unto the Lord and had been answered with a blessing upon their heads.
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At the conclusion of the meeting we were reluctant to leave. As we did so, seen were the waving hands of all, heard were the words, “Auf Wiedersehen, auf Wiedersehen; God be with you till we meet again.”
Patience, that heavenly virtue, had brought to humble Saints its heaven-sent reward. The words of Rudyard Kipling’s “Recessional” seemed so fitting:
The tumult and the shouting dies; The captains and the kings depart. Still stands thine ancient sacrifice, vAn humble and a contrite heart. Lord God of Hosts, be with us yet, Lest we forget, lest we forget.
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